997

When Edward Enninful turns up to work, a security guard tells him to “use the loading bay”. The appalling assumption being, because Enninful is black, he’s here to deliver goods. Enninful, known for his “edgy elegance” does not dress like a delivery van man. Former model,  fashion editor at 18 Enninful has, since 2017, been Editor-in-Chief of British Vogue.

996

Serpent in the garden. Ants hollow out peonies and the trunks of fruit trees. Flies devour olives, starlings figs, slugs lettuces, aphids beans, lizards strawberries. Drought shrivels raspberries, something’s rotting the almonds, spider mites, beetles, mildew. Dreams of self-sufficiency dim.  Magpies crack open blackbirds’ eggs, sun cracks the earth. Bindweed a horticultural Sars-Cov-2.

995

I made a list of things that made me happy and it was very long. My laptop wasn’t on it, though most of each day is spent staring at its screen.  A lifeline, yes, but it also sucks you in. In the past we read books for entertainment, listened to music live, sat with friends, watched films in art houses.

994

Young and old, most people I know clasp their phones, even when invited out to meals. People watch on their phones, have affairs on their phones, divorce by text, celebrate pandemic birthdays on phones, work and make love on their phone. Now people die on relatives’ phones, are mourned and buried on screens.

993

The terrible finality of death hits hard. Can it be that he is dust? Will Inever see his face again? Never see him smile or hear his laugh? I can’t imagine it. Nor this world without him, his larger-than-life presence, his laughter, wit, his charm. Can someone that alive be truly dead? 

992

Billy Connolly once joked that “the great thing about Glasgow is that if there’s a nuclear attack it’ll look exactly the same afterwards.”  But what about after a pandemic? There’s exciting talk afoot around the globe of banning cars, turning office buildings into homes, building bike lanes, greening city centres and suburbs & encouraging micro-markets, so people can shop locally and well. 

991

The young may not have fallen ill or died, yet may never recover financially from coronavirus or its psychological fallout.  Lives on hold, unemployment and a frankly bleak reality socially, economically, environmentally await when “normality” returns. Yet we look to them to find solutions!

990

One son’s summer job involves wiping old people’s bums. As he tries to feed them they dribble and say mamamamamaaaaaaaaa.  His brother finally got a job interview and flew yesterday into “the Wuhan of Germany” (North Rhine Westphalia – catchy name) as it announced Lockdown Take 2.  

989

Sleep would not come, so I’m steeped in Little Dorrit, BBC Costume drama at its dazzling best: fantastically written, outstanding performances, stunning locations.  Dickens could be writing about both the financial crash of 2008 (when this Andrew Davies adaptation was filmed) & 2020: Wm. Dorrit at times so like Trump, vainglorious, pretentious, rude, bankrupt, blind.

988

In Shakespeare’s plays brothers often portray jealousy, betrayal, usurpation. Shakespeare’s brother Edmund was an actor in London. Picture the scene:  “Go on.”  – No  “Please?” – No. “Just a small part,” – No! “Bastard!”

987

Procrastination is a thief of many things and robbed us of knowing more about Shakespeare the family man.  In 1662, fifty years after Shakespeare died, an antiquarian called John Ward made a note in his diary to call on Shakespeare’s daughter, Judith next time he was in Stratford-Upon-Avon.  Judith died shortly afterwards.

986

The way we live is unsustainable. Relentless pursuit of money drives societies into poverty, is environmentally catastrophic. We need new goals, new ways of meeting the needs of all, within the means of the planet. Kate Raworth’s Doughnut Economics offers ideas about thriving while retaining balance https://www.kateraworth.com/doughnut/

985

This house is almost literally built of books & I keep buying more, especially books by medics for son studying medicine – Gavin Francis, Simon Baron-Cohen, Adam Rutherford to name but a few.  Son’s Professor asks him what book he’s reading. “Rugbymen, Asterix and Venom v. Spiderman…” Son replies. His honesty elicits a laugh.

984

A pandemic. Police brutality. People dying in their homes alone. Children missing out on education.  And at 7:30 am my 87-year old neighbour is on tiptoes peering over the fence, worrying that the roots of a tree I planted 3 years ago, a tree not even a metre high, might in 100 years reach her garage.

983

George Floyd dies when a cop kneels on his neck for almost 9 minutes crying at least 16 times “I can’t breathe,” and calls for his dead mother.  The Rev Al Sharpton put it well: “the reason we could never be who we wanted and dreamed of being, is (for 401 years) you kept your knee on our necks.”

982

“Black people have been killed in the streets and no one cared. Black communities have been razed. And white people lament the loss of a Target. The social contract isn’t just broken. It never existed… They are lucky that what black people are looking for is equality and not revenge.” Kimberley Jones.

981

From the NYT: But the point here isn’t that Trump is responsible for the nation’s wounds. It’s that he is the reason some of those wounds have festered and why none of them can heal, at least for as long as he remains in office. Until we have a president who can say, as Lincoln did in his first inaugural, “We are not enemies, but friends” our national agony will only grow worse.

980

While my jaw was on the ground, I was emotionally untouched as we were walked through the finished Grand Design. A city trader and his wife have spent countless millions turning 3000 subterranean square metres into London real estate. It didn’t feel like a home.  And while the lighting’s ingenious, it’s going to be one big dark cellar in a power cut. 

979

Here’s why my children tell me I’m naïve: I watch programmes in which white couples spend the GDP of a small country doing up a house that’s all marble and gleaming glass and wonder why they don’t build homes for homeless folk, well-equipped schools, communal gardens or community centres that would transform immigrants’s lives.  

978

Rapper Killer Mike says, “it is your duty not to burn your own house down for anger with an enemy. It is your duty to fortify your own house so that you may be a house of refuge in times of organization. Now is the time to plot.  We must plan. We must strategize, organize, and mobilize.” Be the change we want to see in the world.